Letting Go of a Life Planned

Letting Go of a Life Planned

Pissed. Angry. Bitter. Plain old mad. These are the emotions that encompass my life. This is not a part of grief that anyone warned me about or I'd ever expected yet this is the number one feeling I've had since the day Joe died. I'm mad this is my life. I'm mad I...

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The Plan is Realized

The Plan is Realized

Fruition: noun 1. the point at which a plan or project is realized This word has been circling around in my head for weeks. Fruition. My daughter, you were born five years ago. We had prayed for this baby. The moment we heard your dad had cancer we had wept at the...

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“There Use to Be Three”

“There Use to Be Three”

"There use to be three," she sobbed. I held an over-tired, sweaty four-year-old up against my chest as she cried. "How could there be three and now there's only me and you?" She pushed her head into my shoulder and pulled the hair at the back of my neck. Three and a...

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#CheersToYou

#CheersToYou

"I see you."  At the core of who we are as humans we have a longing to be seen, to feel like we matter, to know we're truly standing here in this thing called life. It's in the hard, lonely, rock bottom times when this feeling can swallow you up to the point you...

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This Is It

This Is It

I have a secret to tell you. It's not going to be easy to hear but I know it to be true. You're going to die. I can't tell you when or where but it's going to happen. This is it. No pressure, but this is your life. It's scary to think about, which I guess is why we...

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Kiddie Cocktails & Chemo

Kiddie Cocktails & Chemo

Kids are resilient. They wear their feelings and raw emotions in ways that more grown-ups could learn from. This weekend we got a chance to celebrate some pretty amazing little people, my sweet 3 year old was one of them. [gallery...

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Lighting a fire in the dark

Lighting a fire in the dark

Grief, depression, heartache and sadness. They roll around like dice, one landing firmly in place and the other balancing on edge making it nearly impossible to see what the exact emotion is you have to play with. It's a heaviness, a pressure sitting on your chest...

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